Why me ?

This had nothing to do with jealousy, hurt or envy. It had to do with doubts. The same niggling doubts I had always had about not belonging. I didn't feel like I belonged with my family, and now I didn't feel like I belonged with him, except unlike my family, who was stuck to me, he had chosen me, and this I didn't understand. Why had he fallen for me? It didn't make sense. I knew it was school that brought us together in the first place, put us in the same space so we could even get to know each other. And I knew how that he liked how helpful and nice I appeared to be. And that he loved my sense of humor. And I knew that when it was the two of us alone together, we could talk for hours and hours about anything and that made me feel like I truly had someone I could trust. I understood all that in my head, but I still didn't believe it in my heart. When I was with him, I felt picked, chosen, special, and loved... But that just made me wonder why me? Even more.

~ If I stay ~ By Gayle Forman ~